Breaking Cycles, Holding Weight: The Mental Health Toll of Being the First to Heal
- Nada Johnson
- Jul 7
- 5 min read
Updated: Jul 9
When you're the first in your Caribbean family to go to therapy, set boundaries, or speak the truth—how NJCCS supports you in carrying what’s never been carried before.
🎓 “You Have It Better, So Just Be Grateful”
Many Caribbean daughters are praised for their accomplishments, being the first to finish university, move abroad, or “make something of themselves.” But what’s rarely talked about is how isolating and heavy it feels to be the first to choose healing in a family that survives by silence, denial, or martyrdom (Ali et al., 2022).
Being the “first” often comes with emotional exile. When you go to therapy, set boundaries, or speak out about past harm, you risk being labeled as ungrateful, disrespectful, or “too Western” (Hunte, 2018). What looks like empowerment on the outside often feels like grief, guilt, and loneliness on the inside.
🧠 The Psychological Cost of Breaking Cycles
Breaking generational patterns is a radical act but it is also exhausting. Research shows that cycle breakers:
Face higher rates of anxiety and emotional burnout (Monk et al., 2021)
Are more prone to family pushback and rejection when they set boundaries (Barlow et al., 2020)
Often carry emotional responsibilities for siblings, cousins, or aging parents (McGee & Stovall, 2020)
Experience “survivor’s guilt” for doing better than previous generations (Mowatt & French, 2021)
This role can lead to complex trauma, identity confusion, and feelings of betrayal or isolation even in moments of success (Nichols & Davis, 2022).
😓 “I’m Healing, But I’m Losing My Family”
When Caribbean women begin the process of naming dysfunction, they often feel punished for choosing peace. You may find that your efforts to heal trigger others who haven’t done their own inner work. You might be told you’re “too sensitive” or “disrespectful” when you try to hold people accountable.
This emotional tension is what scholars call “role exit dissonance” the psychological pain of outgrowing a family identity while still craving connection (Ramos & Junaid, 2019). Healing is beautiful but it can feel like loneliness in disguise.
💚 What Nada Johnson Helps With:
At NJCCS, I provide culturally grounded therapy to support Caribbean women who are first-generation cycle breakers. My practice helps clients navigate guilt, grief, and transformation with care. I offer:
Therapy That Validates Cycle Breakers→ You’re not “too much” - you’re just the first to name what’s been buried for decades.
Grief Support for Emotional Estrangement→ Helping clients mourn what’s lost when they choose growth over comfort.
Boundary Coaching for Family Pushback→ Supporting clients in holding firm while staying grounded and compassionate.
Survivor’s Guilt Processing→ Exploring the psychological impact of succeeding while others suffer.
Community-Building Beyond Bloodlines→ Helping clients cultivate their chosen family, support networks, and safe spaces for vulnerability.
🌿 How This Supports Mental and Emotional Wellness:
Reduces Anxiety from People-Pleasing and Role Reversal→ Clients learn to release the belief that they must parent their parents or save their siblings (Monk et al., 2021).
Builds Stronger Internal Compass→ Cycle breakers learn to trust their truth, even when others don’t affirm it (Nichols & Davis, 2022).
Fosters Empowered Boundary-Setting→ Clients no longer shrink themselves to avoid discomfort in others (Barlow et al., 2020).
Creates Grief Literacy for Family Losses→ Therapy helps name the ache of leaving behind toxic dynamics even if the people remain alive (Ramos & Junaid, 2019).
Affirms the Right to Thrive Without Guilt→ Nada supports clients in celebrating joy, success, and peace without apology.
🕊️ Being the First Is Brave and You Don’t Have to Do It Alone
You’re not broken for needing space.
You’re not selfish for needing peace.
And you’re not alone for being the first to name the pain.
At NJCCS, I walk with the women who go first - the healers, the truth-tellers, the boundary-setters.
You were never meant to carry this alone.
📞 Ready to Heal ?
Whether you're processing old pain or setting new boundaries, I am here to help you come back home to yourself.
I do this with compassion, cultural understanding, and care.
Visit nadajohnsonservices.com or reach out @njccservices on Instagram to get started.
Warmly,
Nada Johnson, MSW, RSW
Registered Social Worker, Psychotherapist / trained Family Mediator / EMDR Trained Therapist / Certified Racial Trauma Clinician / Mental Health & Sexual Violence Consultant / Professional Speaker
🌍Website: www.nadajohnsonservices.com
📩 Contact: info@nadajohnsonservices.com
Nada Johnson Consulting & Counselling Services - Online phone and video sessions available
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C: 437-887-6146
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🧾 References
Ali, S. R., McCoy, T., & Lee, C. Y. (2022). Intergenerational trauma and healing in first-generation BIPOC women. Journal of Counseling Psychology, 69(3), 345–357.
Barlow, M. R., Thompson, E., & Johnson, A. J. (2020). Navigating toxic family systems: Boundaries, resistance, and resilience. Journal of Family Psychology, 34(5), 492–505.
Hunte, H. E. (2018). Cultural mistrust and therapy resistance among Caribbean clients. International Journal for the Advancement of Counselling, 40(4), 343–359.
McGee, L., & Stovall, M. (2020). The eldest daughter effect: Emotional labor and invisible care in Black and Caribbean families. Journal of Black Studies, 51(1), 58–75.
Monk, J. K., Chavira, D. A., & Cummings, J. R. (2021). Cycle breaking and psychological distress: The role of social support in healing generational trauma. Social Science & Medicine, 281, 114091.
Mowatt, R. A., & French, B. H. (2021). The emotional cost of thriving: Black women, success, and survivor guilt. Journal of Counseling and Development, 99(1), 12–22.
Nichols, T. R., & Davis, J. M. (2022). Becoming the first: Black women’s experiences with healing in isolation. Cultural Diversity and Ethnic Minority Psychology, 28(2), 153–164.
Ramos, K., & Junaid, A. (2019). Healing beyond family: The psychology of chosen families and emotional survival. Contemporary Psychology Review, 14(3), 201–219.
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